Black Sheep
When and how did I become
the black sheep of the family
how can that even be
I gave my love without a fee
never took anything just for me
never sulked or disagreed
but now I know the bridges are burned
I will never get the love I hoped to earn.
When and how did I become
dead to my family
phone number taken off the wall
never getting any calls
the very first grandchild I be
so why was I unwilling to see
at family reunions, I was the absentee
slowly being separated from the family tree.
When and how did this ever start
living amongst a family that has no heart
now that both of my parents are dead
I got nothing so they could get ahead
all the horrible things done and said
all the days and nights filled with dread
I hope that someday I can accept and see
why my unsavory family doesn’t deserve me.
© Rebecca Sanchez 2016
Written with dVerse~Poets Pub and Poets United.
Capricious Poet 
This is really moving and well-written! 🙂
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Thank you, Neha! I appreciate your kindness at commenting. It rings even truer today after my mom died a few years back. I wish I had the guts to post this on Facebook but I don’t like to attract that attention. Isn’t it funny that here it is, anyone can read it here but none of my relatives, even the ones who know I write, have ever visited here or cared about my writing. I wrote a poem to the family I still care about when my cousin died (if you want to read it, it’s called Under Summer Skies) and posted it on Facebook twice and not one comment. It stung, but they’re not a bunch of college grads either. I never knew family was this complicated but I wish I had. Thanks again! Hugs!
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Hey Bekkie! That’s why we make friends, right? A family we choose. It is heartbreaking to know of what you have faced but you know what? I feel much worse for your extended family now because they don’t know who they are missing out on. You aren’t missing a thing, honey! I will definitely check out ‘Under Summer Skies’, and thank you for responding. Hugs ❤ ❤
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You are a real sweetie!
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The feelings are mutual ❤
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I can’t even imagine…but I don’t have to, because you have said it so well.
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Thank you!
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All we need is to be accepted. And family is one important thing but one must not stay connected be it family or friend if there is no value to the person there. That is sad your family is so. Hugs! Be who you are and be with people who accept you as you are! 🙂
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Thank you!
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Here we are–a family that accepts you for being you. You do not get to choose your family, but they do not get to have you in their lives.
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Thank you!
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Oh this one tore at the heart.. so very touching and poignant. Big hugs!
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Thank you! Hugs back.
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Well you are not the first I have heard of. My two close friends have suffered the same fate and are resented by their families.They both have this in common. They are both honourable truthful and definitely a cut above the rest of them in every way. I think this could be the problem Bekkie:)Find a better tree,or just be a splendid tall sunflower… sounds like a merciful release.It’s their loss. Sorry if you find this blunt..I am an Aussie …we look at things plainly 🙂
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Thank you and it was not blunt just honest.
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this is quite sad. being left behind by your family after working so hard for them.
i see this played out in the lives of many parents, but also siblings.
my father in law passed away recently so i know too the breaking that happens
when greed takes over as well.
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Thank you! There is plenty of greed in the world.
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A very poignant take on the prompt.
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Thank you!
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Unfortunately we are born into families and many times we would never select them….your deep poignant and painful poem speaks of truth as you say…they do not deserve you as what they value is so far from your beauty and truth….I wish you peace Bekkie.
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Thank you Donna.
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such a powerful emotive read. Harder to walk away when families are cruel.
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Thank you!
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i think one should avoid fault finding folks, relatives or whatever…they don’t deserve a space in our hearts & this truth has to be accepted….it’s sad and hard though but there’s nothing like moving on….
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For sure.
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Families can be so hurtful. And they rarely see us as who we really are – looking through their own judgments and misperceptions. I am sorry, Bekkie. Burt you are one of the flock online. I know that gives me comfort when I encounter certain of my own relatives not really seeing me.
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That means so much to me Sherry! I do not let things like this bother me to the point of unhappiness or they would win. Love ya!
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So very sad. I was the black sheep on my father’s side – never accepted. And after all these many years, it still hurts. Excellent take on the prompt.
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I am sorry you know how it feels. I’m not sure it will ever stop hurting. If only I know why it might be easier to swallow. Thanks!
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I know longer care why. In fact, the other day I realized I had come to the point where I rarely think of it. I have reached the point of time to lay down this burden and move on.
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You know, I’m almost there too. Here’s to moving on my friend! Hugs!
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This is very tragic indeed….I am very sorry to hear that you have been removed from the family tree.
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Thank you, Grace. It happens to many of us and it’s a sad fact.
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Oh Bekkie, I’m so sorry for you… a family should never do that to you… what can it be if you’ve never hurt them… it makes me sad and disappointed on humanity.
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Thank you, Bjorn. Unfortunately, it’s been about who gets what and mostly greed which is really sad because objects and money are not the important things in life are they?
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