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Returning from the war I locked away my gun
put away my uniform and that part of me
I was already damaged and not quite whole
thrown back into the world with bleak uncertainty
doubt funnels through my brain like a sieve
while I sit on a slab of ebbing confusing emotions
a large oscillating wave of self-doubt pressing against me
it never leaves me even when I pretend to sleep
I feel it’s weight upon me even now as I try to speak
a cell-block encasing my heart even though I try to break free
I ask my maker every day, what will become of me?

© Rebecca Sanchez 2018

The prompt was weapon and I could have added it to the poem but this (fantasy) soldier is a weapon himself, taught to both use and become a weapon. Once home, our soldiers find it hard to turn off these learned behaviors and stop the bad memories from returning home with them.

Deactivate-remove from active duty in the military.

I used the animated GIF to write my poem and found it during a Google image search.

Written with my friends at Poets United.

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Stars And Stripes

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Stars And Stripes

All wrapped up
in bright red stripes
against a navy sky
with stars in her eyes.

Unfurling herself
naked to the winds
and oh, what a view!
Red, white and blue.

© Rebecca Sanchez 2014

Happy Memorial Day! Summer starts soon.

Plant Of Joy

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Plant Of Joy

An international symbol
of those who die in war
a symbol of peace.
So what do we fight them for?

War is the poppy of mankind
it’s a drug we can’t live without
the flower the color of blood
in empty battlefields they sprout.

We crave war’s victories
and the freedoms we think it brings
but one side has to lose
one side has to die
and it’s not the side that’s right
or the side that’s wrong
it’s the side that kills
and the side that’s strong.

No matter how long peace reins
there are always men dreaming of war
no matter how many people die
no matter what is being fought for.

War is an ungodly practice
so often done in the name of God.

© RebekkaSanchez2015

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